Updated: May 28
Dear 15-Year-Old Me,
I am going to be honest with you, I’ve started this letter over a lot of times. I find that it’s hard to find the exact words I want to say to you. What do you want to hear? As I am writing this, I am 20 years old, and it is 5 years later. I cannot believe it. The reason why I am writing you this letter is to share everything that you will accomplish within the next 5 years. 5 years ago, I was going through a lot of change in my life. My brother had just left for college, I moved out of my childhood home, the people I was hanging out with were changing, the bullying was getting pretty bad, and I was changing as a person. I did a terrible job at adjusting to all of the changes.
I know that times aren’t easy right now. I know that you think it’s the end of the world because you are in this phase where you feel lost. Right now, life isn’t pulling you into one specific direction and it is scaring you. You are beginning to figure out who you are as a person, and you are beginning to grow up. You are beginning to find your strength again. Let me tell you what’s to come in the next 5 years. A whole lot, and I won’t have the time to share everything that has happened because I could write novels about it. Instead, I am going to give you the cliff notes version and I am going to share the lessons that I think 15-year-old me would listen too.
Over the course of the next 5 years, life will continue to change for you in an infinite amount of ways. First, high school will get better and more stressful. During your junior year of high school, you get to have two of your favorite teachers. You start loving English. Because of all of this, you put so much more effort into high school. Instead of winging every exam, you spend time taking notes, studying, and actively doing your homework to learn the material. You go to extra help because you want to become a better student. You pass your road test and get your first job as a cashier at a grocery store. The ACTs are going to make you want to pull out your hair, but during that time you find yourself loving and gravitating towards science. You find that your heart is in science and that you genuinely love learning. Junior year is a crazy year for you, but it’s just the start of the craziness.
In your senior year of high school, you get into college which is a big deal. After getting into nearly every college you applied to (you never would’ve thought that), and getting into the University of Delaware on December 24th, 2016. You decide to go there, and you ultimately switch your major to become a teacher. Yeah who would have ever thought? Definitely not you, but during your junior and senior years of high school the teachers you had changed your life. You got to have your biology and Spanish teachers for a third year, your freshman English teacher again, and your math teacher made math one of your favorite subjects. These were some of the teachers that showed you how you could change the world, and that has been something that you have always wanted to do. 2 other amazing things that happen, is that you meet your best friend and your start journaling. Both of these events help change your life and grow as a person.
In college your life is filled with change. Every semester is different than the next. You fall in love with nonprofit work, traveling, community service, education, geology, and so much more. After being the girl who never thought she would ever join a sorority, you end up joining one. In college you fall more in love with writing, and you end up writing for a total of 3 blogs, one of them being your own. Once again, who would have ever thought? With everything you do in college, you learn and grow from it. I am not going to sugarcoat things because you will make a lot of mistakes. You will go through moments that test your strength. At the same time, you will go through some of the happiest moments of your life and you will meet the best people in the world.
From all of this, the takeaway lessons are simple and it is to be open to everything and anything and to enjoy the moments you have with people. Life is going to throw you curve balls and it will get difficult, but through those moments you will become stronger. You will meet people who change you and inspire you to be a better person. Everything happens for a reason, and there is so much more to come out of life. There is always a silver lining in life even during some brutally painful moments.
Younger Me, better and darker times ahead. 5 years is a long time, and I love who I am today and that came from you. Every step along the journey to becoming the person I am today and the person I will continue to become is a s. Not every step is a step forward, but that’s okay. The person you become is an awesome person, and I know you’ll be proud of your future self.
Your Future Self (THIS IS WEIRD)