Usually at the end of every year, I like to reflect on what happened. In the past 2 years, I’ve written articles about the things I’ve learned in the past year. In 2019, I learned a lot and I went through a lot. Literally writing that sentence, I went through a quick flashback at a few of the life-changing moments that happened to me.
2019 was a year. I have some thoughts on it. However, I am tired of looking back at 2019. Frankly, it wasn’t the greatest year of my life and I don’t want to dwell on the past right now. That past has a lot of negative moments and I am FINALLY in a place where I don’t want to think about those moments. I don’t want to think about what I went through. I don’t want to dwell on a negative time because I like feeling happy. I have finally accepted everything that happened and that the people who are supposed to be in my life will find a way to stay in my life.
Instead, I want to think about how strong I’ve become. I want to focus on the lessons I’ve learned. I want to embrace being in the moment. I want to move on because I’ve held onto things for way too long. I want to focus on me thriving in 2020, because that will happen.
To 2020, I am ready for you. I acknowledge that I have been broken by 2019. However, I am not only fixed, but I am RENOVATED and better than ever! To me 2019 was that mean teacher that we’ve all had, and that we all hate to admit but was definitely one of the teachers that taught us the most growing up.
To 2020, I have no expectations for you. All I have is hope. I hope that I continue renovating myself. I hope that I continue accepting and embracing who I am because I truly am a queen (can I be the Queen of America?). I hope that I continue exploring life and the world. I hope that I have fun and that I continue to love life even in the gross moments. I hope that I laugh a lot because 2019 gave me a lot of comic relief.
2020, my goals for myself are to continue writing to my Future Self and to be able to let go of the things that I cannot control easier. By the end of 2020, I would like to move on from the ugliness of life easier. Finally, my goal is to grow as a person by leaving my comfort zone and exploring more and to surround myself with people who care as much about me as I care about them.
2020, whatever you have in store for me, just know that I am ready. I am ready to take on the valleys and to embrace my peaks. I am ready to apply all of the lessons that I have learned and to take this bull by its horns.
2020, even if you’re worse than 2019 I am still ready for you. Hit me with your best shot, and I will still come out stronger and better than ever before. That is a promise.
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